Pagan Journal: Forging My Path

Time to settle in for some tea and introspection, I think. 🙂


Maybe I’ll make that a weekend habit; to set aside some spiritual time! I like that idea.

I do a fair bit of thinking about my spiritual path, and reading, watching, listening about the paths of others. I don’t do a lot of practicing these days. I have been paying attention to the changing of the season (which is so wonderful!) and the filling of the new moon; I do like to know what’s going on that way, to be centred using those points. So I do practice my spirituality in those ways.

But I think I’m at the point where I want to develop rituals to express my spirituality, and delve deeper into it. I was listening to this RobCast episode the other day; a few minutes into it they start discussing irrational beliefs, rational thought, and what Rob calls transrational thought(/belief?). It’s a fascinating topic. I guess the way I understand it, the transrational occurs after you’ve gone through your rational examination of the beliefs you’ve been brought up with, and realize the need to give a name to experiences that are not quantifiable. This isn’t the same as holding beliefs without examining them, in a non-rational way. This is recognizing that there are parts of our existence that we can never fully understand, due to the limitations of our physical bodies through which we experience the world. Recognizing this, and using powerful names that already exist to make an attempt to talk about what’s going on in the realm of spirit.

Does this mean that I think a “realm of spirit” literally physically exists somewhere? Not necessarily. I can certainly easily allow for that possibility though!

I just noticed there’s a really beautiful old tree outside the window of where I’m staying:


Kind of looks like he has an eye and is watching me. Looks friendly anyway. 🙂

One person I’d consider a spiritual mentor is Kelly-Ann Maddox. Though I’ve never talked to her, I feel like I resonate so much with what she says in her videos, and they’ve really helped me start to define my own path. I think that she is definitely someone you could consider transrational; she thinks critically, but is also open to the mysteries. She describes herself as a spiritual counsellor who holds the torch and walks alongside you for a while. I love that image 🙂 .

She offers a few different ways to work with her, which I think I will save up to purchase one day in the not-so-distant future; the Spiritual Counselling Session for sure. The Creative Magick Brainstorming Session is another that really appeals to me. So I’m thinking I can structure my approach to this part of my life in these two dimensions: the spiritual side, and the side that is curious about magical experimentation.

It does feel rather open and raw to share these thoughts publicly online – even under a pseudonym!! lol. I’ll have to do some private journalling as well, some private communion and ritual work. But at the same time, I’m glad to have a public blog about it too; it helps me to keep coming back to it, to make it a regular practice. So, thank you for reading. 😉 ❤

Hello Pagan and Witchy Community!

God (Gods, Goddess, etc), do I ever need this outlet.


My beliefs are certainly pagan; I revere nature. I’m starting to explore polytheism, waffling between hard and soft polytheism (unapologetically). I love the freedom that an eclectic path allows – choose what works for you, explore.

I’m also fascinated by the occult, witchcraft, and systems of magic. That is one of the main reasons for creating this space, really; I need a place to share my views without needing to edit them to make them easier for others to swallow.

The world is so full of possibility and potential; why limit yourself? Why limit your experience?

So, I am creating this online space for myself to fully explore my spirituality and curiosities. I’ve chosen a new name, created this sacred space, allowed myself to dabble and experiment. It’s quite exciting really, to take on the name of “witch”; something I’ve been drawn to for many years, but have held back from due to others in my life.

I’ll share whatever I find interesting concerning this pagan path as well. I was just reading Thorn Mooney’s post on her Patheos blog about how an individual’s spirituality is likely to evolve over time, just as they do; I love this point of view. Like I mentioned above, I’m currently exploring different ideas surrounding deity – the idea that they’re archetypes formed from our collective unconscious; that they have power through the generations of worshippers who have come before us; that they are beings of their own in some sense, whether sometimes physically but mostly astrally. (Is astrally a word? You know what I mean.)

I’m going to try out which of these ideas feels right to me at this time; and I expect what feels right for now to vary as I grow older. I embrace that concept of growth and change. Does it mean that the literal reality of whether these entities exist or not changes? Not likely. But who’s to say? What is the nature of reality? Is it “consensus reality”, what we all agree upon to be real (which does not exist, as we all believe different things anyway); is it decided by what we happen to truly believe at any given moment? Do we create our reality as we live it?? (Wormhole ahead!)

I hope to use this venue to meet others on this path. MAN, do I ever need to talk about it.

Blessed be. 🙂 ❤